亲爱的D

亲爱的D

一个月就这样过去了。

你连再见也没有说呢。

我们都久久不能释怀。

多么地不舍。

原来这些年下来,你已经变成我的家人了。朋友不多的我,这十几年在你们身上学会的就是爱:兄弟姐妹的爱、不虚伪的爱、不为利益的爱。这些毫不假装的爱让冷漠的我改变初衷,不再孤独。我愿意为你们做的远远超出自己所想像的。也许我们俩拥有的不是最亲密的爱,但是我却能全然相信你,相信你在最重要的时刻会全心全意在我身边。不为什么,只因你爱屋及乌。可是现在,我需要想想下一个名字了。可是我知道,没有人能代替你。

失去你,不是单纯失去朋友的伤痛,不是愤怒相处时间太短,而是绞心的难过。我知道我们都会离开,有何赦免呢。可是回想起那些空间那些时间,一切故事让我掉眼泪。原来我疼惜你有那么深。

除了失去你,最让我心痛的是那个不吭声的男人。那个视你如珠如宝、愿意为你赴汤蹈火的男人总是半夜静悄悄掉眼泪,第二天又开始埋头为你的琐碎事烦恼的男人。我自私地认为不公平,除了你和我已经没有人能依赖的他,如今连你也失去了。你对于他情浓于血,曾对我说你是上天眷顾他孤单而送来的兄弟。那些不能和我说的故事,如今要向谁提起呢?那些我无法明白的情感倾诉,他以后要往哪里埋葬呢?那些男人之间的谈话,从此烟消云散。

我多么不甘心他的坎坷啊。

总是刹那拥有,然后心碎失去。

是不是有一天我也会先行离他而去呢。

到他的梦里去吧,他真的很想你。

我们都很想你。

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For us, you are clearly irreplaceable.

You are one of the kindest person with the purest of heart. You have touched my life in such magical way; opened up my eyes and showed me the meaning of unpretentious love for your brothers and sisters. It is through you I have witnessed the greatest love shown in the simplest ways.

It sadden me so much that you have left us, no words could express the lost and loneliness we are feeling now. Your brothers still mourn in silence during the days and weep in the sleepless nights. Your name slipped our tongue so conveniently like nothing has changed. But the truth is, it will never be the same again. Not the same without you. You have taken a piece from each of us with you, but we know it will come a day that we will see you again.

Thank you for taking care of my man all the years, with only the best intentions for him. Thank you for being his listener and a brother he secretly wished for. Now he has lost the only person he can truly confine in, and I know, for him, the world has lost its glory. He has not said a grieving word for days, yet every part in him is broken. This crack cuts so deep, only the memory of you can fill that space. You will live eternally in his heart.

Thank you for being a part of my earthy journey and allowed me to be part of yours. I am forever grateful.

 

 

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